The Meltdown....

So being alone today meant I had WAY too much to over think things, get anxious and practically have the hugest meltdown about going home... I think it's going to be very difficult adjustment. I think I will be missing Ben way more than when he first left in May or when I came home from the the first visit in July.
I know my weekends will be busy and many evenings too if I desire to book in visits with friends and family... it will be the weekdays I think that will get me the most and be the loneliest.

I am worried about Evelyn and I adjusting to the time difference. I am worried about the upkeep of the house and the driveway and the SNOW that will be coming! I am worried that the car won't start after sitting in my garage so many months... or just breakdown entirely. I think that these last few months have felt like a holiday in a lot of ways and going home to real life will be a big smack in the face and it's going to kick my butt :(

So to all my friends in the Toronto area distractions (especially during the weekdays are MOST welcome!)

So I forgot in my earlier post to write about my trip to Ben's film set yesterday!
It was awesome AS ALWAYS!!! Sacha Baron Cohen is VERY tall and he looks great in this role, I think the movie is going to be really good. Seriously. Watching him on set yesterday working with Marty was pretty awesome :)
Evelyn stayed at the flat with Hannah being babysat by Amy. Only Henry came along with us cause obviously Chanda is still nursing him. I didn't get to talk to Marty or SBC but that's okay I didn't expect too. So that was a pretty good way to spend the day! I doubt I will get back out to set before going home. Technically the set is "closed" which means you can't just have random visitors so Ben doesn't want to press his luck.

Tomorrow night I am excited about our dinner out... although slightly nervous because I am leaving Evelyn with a new sitter since my reg girl Amy is home for the weekend it's her grans 80th birthday. That might make me not enjoy the dinner out as much then if I knew she was with Amy... but we'll see. Likely my last nice dinner out with Ben until he is home at Christmas....
Well hopefully Ben is home in the next 20 mins or so...