I can't sleep so I might as well write.
Arrived in London at 11am Saturday June 11th. Ben picked us up from the airport.
The flight was uneventful, Evelyn was a perfect baby again :)
Today Sunday was spent sleeping all day by me and generally avoiding the purpose of this trip.
Ben took care of Evelyn. fed her, bathed her and played.
I hope we (as in Evelyn and I) do a little sightseeing and have some fun while we are here. I have a few things planned while Ben will be busy working.
For Evelyn
The purpose of this journey this time is a very sad one.
Ben has chosen to end our marriage.
Evelyn I can not explain his reasons. They are his alone. When you are bigger you can ask him. He promised me he would answer all your questions. Maybe by then he will actually be able to give you a better explanation then what I have received.
I loved being married to your dad and this decision of his has made me very sad. I am so thankful you are little enough to not truly see and understand my pain.
Although being a single mom was not a dream of mine having you a daughter was certainly always the biggest dream I had. I never wanted anything more than to have a daughter and be a mom.
I love you more than anything in this world. I hope one day when you read this blog to see what amazing things we did together and look back at the photos and see how I documented this year since your birth so you could relive it.
I loved this year since you were born. I loved traveling with you and you were such a good baby.
It's been a hard year, one of the most difficult I have encountered and is about to be even more challenging.
But your smile is the prettiest one there is and your giggles make me so happy.
Despite everything never doubt how much I love you. Everything I do is for you or because of you.
Love you Baby
